I’ve been feeling the need to write a meatier post in my blog for the last few days, but I just couldn’t decide what I should write about. Until tonight.
I don’t know what it is exactly, but this week I’ve felt very unlike myself. By unlike myself, I mean I feel apathetic and completely unmotivated. The last few months I’ve kept myself extremely busy with activities or events most nights of the week. Of course that takes its toll on your body, but for the most part I’ve felt pretty good about it. It can’t be any worse than commuting to work every day.
However, my two main activities on Monday and Tuesday nights are ending this week and next. I’m excited for the former to be done because it just feels like time, but the latter. . . I’m sad to see it go. I have truly loved and anticipated my Zumba class, and it’s given me a place to exercise when it was too cold and dark to go after I got off work. Not only is it fun but it’s a great workout too! Yes, this is motivating me to finally find a gym where I can work out now. I even found a great deal through my work this week that I’m excited to look into.
The last two nights when I didn’t have anything going on, I’ve been incredibly lazy. Not that laziness is unheard of for me because it’s not. But the apathy is not really normal for me. And the utter exhaustion that has accompanied it is also strange.
Some of it could be attributed to the fact that I’ve been sick for over a week and a half now. I’ve felt much better this week than last, but I’m still not all the way there. I know sickness can take a lot out of you. And last week was super stressful at work too, so that could also be factoring into this, even though this week has been much, much better.
I guess the real issue is that I don’t quite feel like myself, and it bothers me, especially since this is supposed to be “the most wonderful time of the year.” I LOVE the Christmas season and all it entails, from the beautiful lights to all the fun holiday events to the fact that people seem to be kinder and more willing to give.
I suppose I just need to find a way to do something for someone else and perhaps that’ll help me. I’d also like to kick this stinkin’ cold once and for all! That’ll surely help me too! Wish me luck as I find my way out of this funk.